Megan Jayne Crabbe's journey to recovery from an eating disorder has been nothing short of remarkable. The 31-year-old body-positive writer, who was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and body dysmorphia at the age of 14, has spent years navigating the complexities of her own mind.
Crabbe recalls being fixated on magazine articles about how to change her body as early as she was a preteen. As puberty began, her obsession with weight loss only intensified, leading her to adopt an extreme dieting regimen in an effort to manage anxiety and school pressures. But beneath the surface, Crabbe's eating disorder was wreaking havoc on her physical health.
She suffered from severe fatigue, low blood pressure, hearing loss, and dizziness β a laundry list of symptoms that attest to the devastating impact of disordered eating. Her body had shut down, and it took a hospitalization at 17 to prompt her parents to intervene.
The road to recovery was long and arduous, with Crabbe oscillating between periods of sobriety and relapse. She remembers committing to recovery with the same "all-or-nothing" mentality that had once fueled her anorexia, only to find herself back in the diet culture trap at 17.
It wasn't until Crabbe turned 21, after months of crash dieting and reaching a weight that she felt was her "goal," that she began to see the error of her ways. It was then that she discovered online body-positive communities and blogs, where individuals of all shapes and sizes were embracing their bodies and living life on their own terms.
Crabbe's transformation was nothing short of profound. She began to relearn hunger and fullness cues, moving away from restrictive eating habits and toward a more intuitive approach to food. Reconnecting with her body became central to healing, as she sought to listen to its needs rather than try to control it.
In doing so, Crabbe has become an outspoken advocate for body positivity, using her platform to challenge the societal norms that have long contributed to disordered eating and low self-esteem. She is a leading voice in the online community, inspiring countless others with her courage and resilience.
For Crabbe, recovery is not about achieving some mythical ideal of beauty or perfection but rather about embracing one's unique shape and size as a source of strength and empowerment. As she reflects on her journey, she knows that it took time to come to this realization: "My 'before' was trying to make myself as small as possible in every conceivable way... My 'after' is allowing myself to be my biggest self, however that looks."
Crabbe recalls being fixated on magazine articles about how to change her body as early as she was a preteen. As puberty began, her obsession with weight loss only intensified, leading her to adopt an extreme dieting regimen in an effort to manage anxiety and school pressures. But beneath the surface, Crabbe's eating disorder was wreaking havoc on her physical health.
She suffered from severe fatigue, low blood pressure, hearing loss, and dizziness β a laundry list of symptoms that attest to the devastating impact of disordered eating. Her body had shut down, and it took a hospitalization at 17 to prompt her parents to intervene.
The road to recovery was long and arduous, with Crabbe oscillating between periods of sobriety and relapse. She remembers committing to recovery with the same "all-or-nothing" mentality that had once fueled her anorexia, only to find herself back in the diet culture trap at 17.
It wasn't until Crabbe turned 21, after months of crash dieting and reaching a weight that she felt was her "goal," that she began to see the error of her ways. It was then that she discovered online body-positive communities and blogs, where individuals of all shapes and sizes were embracing their bodies and living life on their own terms.
Crabbe's transformation was nothing short of profound. She began to relearn hunger and fullness cues, moving away from restrictive eating habits and toward a more intuitive approach to food. Reconnecting with her body became central to healing, as she sought to listen to its needs rather than try to control it.
In doing so, Crabbe has become an outspoken advocate for body positivity, using her platform to challenge the societal norms that have long contributed to disordered eating and low self-esteem. She is a leading voice in the online community, inspiring countless others with her courage and resilience.
For Crabbe, recovery is not about achieving some mythical ideal of beauty or perfection but rather about embracing one's unique shape and size as a source of strength and empowerment. As she reflects on her journey, she knows that it took time to come to this realization: "My 'before' was trying to make myself as small as possible in every conceivable way... My 'after' is allowing myself to be my biggest self, however that looks."